I took a break. Not 100% by choice but I couldn’t find a job to go to that I loved and I really did NEED the break. I took almost two months. I started thinking more seriously about starting a business for myself and then a wonderful friend told me about a program to assist … More

Be this, do that

You need to breathe You need a break You’re not well, rest! You’re holding things to close, you need to let go. In my head, as much as I know these comments are coming from a loving place. They hurt, they stress me out and worst of all, they make me doubt me. I recently … More Be this, do that

The good blah

A constant difficulty of mine is staying in the present moment. I’m very good at holding on to what’s happened in the past as well as planning or setting expectations in the future.  These last two weeks though I have been present. For almost every moment of every day. Perhaps it’s been because there have … More The good blah

29th December 2016

Today marks 2 years since the pilot died. Today I’m sad. 2 years since he died and I didn’t know until the next day but I knew something was wrong. It still hurts. Just because he didn’t care for me as much as I did him doesn’t mean I don’t feel sad. He wasn’t a great … More 29th December 2016

It’s not for me

Tough topic with many people having many different opinions but this isn’t an opinion, this is just how it’s been for me.  Suicide.  I can think of four clear times in my life where I have no longer wanted to “be”. Four clear memories of me wanting to step in front of a truck, starve … More It’s not for me

’tis the season

Christmas parties and plenty of gatherings to be had. All of course come with a generous helping of booze. I like alcohol. Not all but I love a glass or 3 of a good bubbles, beer, gin and tonic, aperol spritz and now I can’t have any! This is slightly awkward, not for me but … More ’tis the season